They found me in a dark room (Poetry Series)

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Photo Credit: Alex Robert

*Disclaimer: This poem was written when I was going through post-cancer depression, and I had a very hard time to be in the society again. Things are going great now. I’m having an amazing life despite my disability.*

 

They found me in a dark room,

Silent, not moving.

They checked all my vitals,

And wondered why I was not breathing.

Silent, not moving,

I was dead for sure,

But they didn’t know how,

What happened? They asked.

They found me in a dark room,

But it was too late,

As I had warned them,

Of my dark place,

And they thought I was lying.

They found me in a dark room,

Or they found what was left of me.

They regretted for not believing,

Or they didn’t, I don’t know.

They’ll find me in a dark room,

Or maybe they will not,

As I tell them I am in a dark place,

But they don’t believe me.

I’m trying to survive,

I’m trying, trust me,

I’m trying to breathe,

But they want to find me in a dark room.

*Quick Explanation: This is a very vulnerable poem for me. After I  finished chemotherapy, facing the society was extremely hard for me. People around me thought of me as a cancer patient, not an individual, as someone who is going to die, that’s why I keep saying ‘they found me in a dark room’, because that’s what they expected it was going to happen. I am now healthy, and going to college. I decided to let go of those toxic people, and met new ones who appreciate me as the individual that I am.*

 

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2 thoughts on “They found me in a dark room (Poetry Series)

  1. Awww Ani. You’ve been so brave to get where you are now. You’re still so brave to set forth these poems for everyone to see. I hope someone will learn a lesson from them.

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